Finally, Be Able to Be Happy
玩童 (Play Kid) 撰
After completing the whole processes and stepping out of the consulting room, I felt happy very much.
I dealt with subconscious two to three times before this time, before this time, I just experienced the third times reunion of a romantic relationship, and then we happily met abroad. After returning home, he suddenly broke up with me, I suppressed the feeling of heartache for a while, and my tears poured again in the consulting room, Teacher Duan said that this might be a good thing, it was Universe help me to see clearly.
Six months ago, at first, I requested the teacher to read my Akashic record and deal with this emotional problem. I felt that there must be something wrong in my heart so I could not get out of the situation. Half a year later, I came to deal with my subconscious. From my description and consulting content, the teacher knew that he had a great fear for intimacy relationship, and he always avoided to face or mention his life and future, he once told me that he only wanted to count day after day, if he was asked to commit a relationship with me, it would be very stressful to him, so I knew it was impossible to have a future with him.
Of course, when I chatted with him, we fell in love with each other, but I could not talk about our future, the situation made me uneasy. After all, I still longed for a life with a family partner. When I was young, my dream of life was to get married, to have my own family and life partner. I was very attached to this matter, so in my past several relationships, even though later I knew that there were major problems in their personality, such as extreme emotional ups and downs, I was still aggrieved to spend time with them, because my purpose was to get married, then it wasted many years. Another state of irony is that there had ever been a boyfriend who proposed to marry me, but later I found that I did not love him and did not want to live with him. It feels like Universe always made joke with me, and I could not get what I want!
Through several times of subconscious processes, I solved some anxiety which was brought from my original family, so at this time I have more power to face the current breakup again, but I have great confusion about my purpose of coming to earth. My love path is very unsuccessful, I think that all I want is just a simple marriage and family with a partner, but why is so difficult?
So, the teacher took me through a subconscious exploration of "my soul's purpose in this lifetime". In the subconscious state, I came back to my childhood, I was a child and played with a clay doll, in the process through the teacher’s guiding, I realized that I can actually create the life which I want, and it is a rational choice and I can laugh happily! After completing, I wondered why my purpose of this lifetime was so simple, and it seemed to with no purpose, just live happily? Should not the love affair be my life issue? The teacher replied to me that do not underestimate the life purpose, it is not a simple matter to make a true happy life.
Actual yes! Recalling my past love relationship journey, the processes were full of hardship. Although there were short happy moments, but after all, I could not achieve the dream----getting married. There were more unhappy moments than happy moments, yes, it is not easy to let yourself have the joy and calmness that really comes from the depths of your heart.
After dealing with the subconscious, I seemed to be free from the shackles. I feel that from now on, I can decide everything about myself and wake up every day to spend my life happy. Although I still do not give up the dream of encountering my life partner, I am more able with an open mind and mood, accept everything Universe gives me, because after understanding my lesson and life purpose from this subconscious exploration, I feel that even if I left this earth today, there is no regret. No marriage does not matter, even now leaving, I feel satisfied. Now, I am excited and looking forward to the future, I want to challenge more goals which I had ever thought that I could not achieve by myself, I want to practice what I have learned in the subconscious process, and continue to send my thoughts to Universe, exercise my mind, grow my soul, and transcend eternity.
*段老師的話(Teacher Duan's Words)
When "Play Kid" came to me at the first time, it was inconvenience to take time to deal with subconscious session because of her working time, we only read her Akashic record. The reason why she came to me was breaking up and reconciliation with a man twice, she felt that they were in love with each other, but because the other person's personality was with some kind of problems, then often made a sudden and unexpected breakup that shocked her very much, she felt very sad.
At that time, after completing the Akashic record reading, although she got some understanding from it, from my years knowing of subconscious work, I knew deeply that in fact, she had an excessive desire and longing for romantic relationship, which would cause her to be hard to see clearly many serious situations in love relationships.
Usually this is because the clients in their growing processes got some pressure from the original family, or lacked of love, which caused they focused on the outside world since the childhood and looked forward to getting love or attention from the outside world. When it became some kinds of habit, they would neglect to self-love and nurture themselves. So, in adulthood, it would have evolved into an excessive desire to get all the love and attentions which was lacked in the childhood from the romantic relationship. However, this kind of self-state is often easy to attract similar persons. It can be imagined that when two people only want to get love from each other, rather than giving love or commitment ( it means taking responsibility for each other), it is really not easy to expect the love can last for a long term and get happy. Because a truly harmonious and equal love relationship requires that firstly, two people to have the energy of independence and love themselves, then they could have the ability to give each other stable and nourishing love. If we hope "Play Kid" own the ability that no matter how ups and downs the love relationship is, she can still have the inner strength to live well, I think it is necessary to enter her subconscious to make a complete reorganization of life and healing.
From my consulting experiences, I think If we want to have a long-term and stable love, it is indispensable that two people are willing to face their own inner problems (e.g. fear, intense ego, or lack of self-confidence) with an open mind and promise to accompany each other to deal with their problems and grow together.
Her last time coming to me, she just went through the third times breakup. She was sad, but the power had already generated from the previous subconscious processing, so she had the inner strength to face the chaos and saw what this relationship looked like.
Finally, I helped her to do a subconscious exploration to help her understand her life purpose in this lifetime. At the beginning, she was very confused that the answer was "to take her own inner power to choose, decide, and bring her a happy life." She said why so simple it is, I told her seriously that this is not simple, it can only be achieved by firmly building and being proficient in what we have learned in our subconscious wisdom. Every person comes to this world with different purposes. You don’t need to think whose purpose is great, why my purpose is not great, just like when everyone learns any knowledge or skill, everyone has their own strengths and weaknesses, and everyone’s learning phase is also different. After having the opportunity to realize the lessons and life purpose we should learn in this lifetime, then just please enjoy this practicing process.
When I saw that "Play Kid" leaving the consulting room happily, she was no longer trapped in the old patterns or trauma about love that had been repeated for many years, I was happy for her.
"Play Kid", please remember that clay doll.